For anyone who reads this, thank you.
Aside from that, my confessions is that I had isolated myself from many things, people and even social media people, to which is why, barely now I am checking my dA account.
I had doubts in myself, and had anxiety of not being sure in what to do in my life. Well, actually I do have an idea, it is art. I want to create my own manga/ comic/ graphic novel, however anybody interpreted. I like telling stories, I want to tell stories, even though I have family members who doubt me, I want to do it.
I had struggled with no support, in which had cause my depression and anxiety, I actually thought there was something wrong with me, but it turns out, it is the stress that I'm receiving from other people. The mind is a dangerous thing.
I had gotten accepted to an art college, a private art college, but I didn't attend because of my mother's doubts in affording it, so currently I'm attending community college.
I'm going to re apply to the school, but not yet. Recently I had lost two family members this year. My biological father and my maternal grandmother who had raised me. And with the loss I have been taking care of my family at home in an emotional way if that makes sense.
But even with the loss I don't want to live to please others. I had been doing that in high school and I am sick and tired of it. I need to focus on me, on my passion, my art. Art is not a hobby for me, it is a part of me, it is my passion, and I am not giving it up ever. No matter how much I suffer.
I got a goal and an idea on what to do, and I'm doing it one step at a time, it's hard to explain, but I am exited to do this.
I need time to reorganize things here and in real life.
I want to continue my fan art here, but I also want to start my own individual creation as well. I just don't know where to start.